I feel like I’ve talked to my church friends since coming to college a lot more than I have my senior year. And it feels amazing. I think I needed a big break from them, explore the world and different types of people and then come back to them. I needed to know what was out there and what the world could offer me. College has taught me so much more than I would’ve imagined and I love it. 

College has made me so much more aware of what I have and I couldn’t change it for the world. It’s the best gift anyone could give me. 

As much as I am excited to go home, I’m more excited for the fake conversations I’ll have to endure with people who think they are my friends. Have you contacted me at all since going to college? No? Then don’t talk to me. 

I’m so thankful for all the people I’ve met in the past 3 months. I came to college in August and I already know that I am going to be friends with these people for the rest of my life. I’ve surrounded myself with such good people. Genuinely good people. 

People who motivate me. People who make me laugh. Cry. Angry. Excited. Smart. People who make me better than who I was. 

I can’t wait to see who I’m going to be by the end of the year. 

This summer has been great. Friends, family, fun. I just wish this would go on forever. 

Why did I have to ruin everything with you? I actually really liked you. But I guess no one can know that because then it would make things worse. 

I guess when something good happens, I can’t handle it and have to ruin it. And that sucks so much. 

Why are you pulling away from me? We were so close until she came along. Does it really matter that I used to have feelings for you? I don’t have those feelings anymore so why should it matter? I want to be your friend and be there when you need me. Just let me in. I need you more than you need me.